It's not so bad

Certain things that I don't want to may keep popping into my head today and making me sick to my stomach. But it passes. And no matter how many times a day it happens, I know it will eventually pass for good. It's just like at the end of a relationship when you break up and you keep getting that nauseous feeling whenever you think about them for the first few days, but it gets better as time goes on. As the day has gone on I'm feeling it pass a lot more easily. I haven't gotten all that much school work done, but I've felt very productive today. Started out pretty drowsy and feeling down in the dumps, and even fell asleep at Goodyear while waiting for my car to get an oil change. I went home and laid in my bed, not wanting to get up, but against my wanting I went to class at 2:30. After class I got some food at Terra Ve where there was a parmesan crisis (not really, but me and another girl had a good laugh over it). Then I took my food over to the co-op (where the hell else would I go?). Hung out there, went to do my radio show. Not too many listeners, but what else is new? Afterwards I stayed in the studio for about an hour reading a book of weird laws and getting hysterical responses from the kid who is station manager such as...

"The reason it is illegal in England for a married couple to live on a discarded bus is because there was a married couple that lived on a discarded bus and it made the king frown."


"Why it is illegal to add sugar to maple syrup in Vermont because it's got enough sugar to begin with. And adding sugar will disrespect the trees"

Which made me laugh not just because the answers themselves were funny but they very much reminded me of things that my best friend would say. Now there's a show going on at the co op and I'm even getting some work done while listening to it. Plus there's a cheese club meeting in 45 minutes! Yes, that is right Purchase has a cheese club. And tomorrow night I'll be going out with my new friends across the street. I may not have people I can call close friends, but I am at the point where I more than just recognize people. They recognize me, sit down and talk and laugh and show some sort of interest. I guess it's not so bad, it's not so bad.