Welcome to Thanksgiving break

First break since Labor Day. Not that I haven't taken my own personal breaks. Well actually, I've only missed each of my three classes once each (it's a record!). I have been home once in the past two weeks and I don't think I've slept in my bed at home in three or four weeks. My hamster hasn't been out of his cage in a week or two either and he is running in a circle in his ball. My air conditioner is still in and I feel the November air coming through the window. It feels like just two months ago I had my cousin put IN that air conditioner. I can't believe winter break is in three weeks. What the fuck? After another frustrating night last night with a certain stupid boy, I realized I need to just stop trying. I need to stop being so desperate. Clearly he is an ass and doesn't give a shit. I mean really all I want is somebody to sleep with, I don't want a relationship. But at the same time I shouldn't do that with somebody as shitty as him. He just cares about himself and is bad news bears. No more of him when I get back from break. Now I'm going to make some dumplings and lay in my wonderful big cloud of a bed.