Here comes the snow again falling from the stars

October 29th and there is snow on the ground. Not just on the ground, but in the sky too. It's been falling all day. And not snow-rain slush, but legitimate snow. And not lightly either. I haven't seen snow in October since I was in 4th grade. This is absurd. Well actually I've got mixed feelings about it. Yesterday my roommate moved out so for the time being I have a double room to myself. It's kind of cozy fixing up this room to my liking and watching the snow fall, not going to lie. Snow is beautiful (when it's falling), but I just hate the cold. If it could snow at 60 degrees I'd be totally okay with that, but that will never happen. I'm just nervous about winter because I've been finding myself going out so much this summer and fall, but once it gets cold I know I will find myself just wanting to stay in my room a lot more often. I absolutely hate winter for that reason. I just want to be able to go outside without my feet getting soaked from the snow and feeling this painfully cold wind hit my face. But at the same time I love watching the seasons change. I'll just have to force myself to keep going out and not stay cooped up in my room.

Stop pacing around and waiting for some moment that might never arrive

This year is going to be different, and I know I say that every year but this time I mean it. While I haven't really made any new friends, within the first week of school I've walked up to 50 strangers for signatures to put myself into the ballot for school senate, put an application in for the school radio to either have a radio show or intern, found out I am second on the wait list for housing (although two weeks later I still haven't moved up...), gotten two As and an 85 (on a pop quiz I was totally unprepared for), and I've even hung out with some old friends from high school who also go here. This year I am going to get involved and I'm going to get my grades up. I say I will never be an A student but maybe I can. Or at least a B+ student. In my honest opinion, a huge part of college and the most useful part about it isn't the information that you  learn in classes, but the people you meet. Connections. I think that is the key to success.

Yes, I am bummed that I have not yet met anybody new who I'd actually keep in close contact with, but I am not going to let that get me down. I am going to look on the bright side. I do have one or two friends on campus and their friends. That is a start. After all, that is how you meet people quite often- through mutual friends. That is how I met both of my ex boyfriends, through other friends/friend's friends. My goals this semester are to make new friends, get involved on campus, and bring up my GPA to at least a 3.0. I won't let the little things get to me. I won't let winter turn me into a hermit this year. I will go out, even if it is just my spot in the music building. I will sit alone if I have to in a public place. I will enjoy myself. I will be happy with where I am and who I am.